Kneeling Before Him
Leadership is often misperceived. It is not a virtue one gains by merely controlling others, nor by earning the right to control. In fact, leadership has nothing to do with gaining authority at all, but rather, learning to Whom the authority belongs.
A servant’s heart is something God grants us when we follow His own lead and embrace the individual gifts He gave us by His matchless grace (1 Peter 4:10). Through serving, we become more of who He meant us to be, because each of our gifts works together to create something entirely beautiful, the hands and feet of Jesus and the reflection of His own heart (1 John 4:19). He spent His entire existence as a paradigm of what true love looks like, the kind of love that is unhindered, unlimited, and unstoppable, echoing throughout our everyday lives (Romans 8:35-39).
By serving, Jesus received more pain than fortune, and more detestation than adoration, from everyone around Him. He didn’t serve by obtaining and maintaining a high status of power, or authority, which He evidently deserves, but by instead becoming lowly in spirit. More times than not, while Jesus walked this earth, He wasn’t noticed for the love that He selflessly portrayed. His love was usually unrequited; and I think that it always was, since we, His loved ones, are incapable of fully loving Him as much in return. But we are assigned to live according to His example, to follow the Leader that Jesus was for us, even though we can never truly grant Him the amount of glory He deserves nor do enough good to outweigh the bad. We are incapable of perfection. It isn’t a part of our beings; but He can sew a servant’s heart into us as we constantly submit ourselves to Him.
Our calling is to serve our God firstly and others secondly, no matter what our gifts are. Jesus knew we wouldn’t receive the amount of support that we, as humans, expect when spreading His love, and He also knew that we would instead be hated and ridiculed just as He was (John 15:18). This is because we don’t need recognition or confirmation from others, but only from the One who died to give us the privilege of following Him, and He teaches us that through our experiences as believers. We find that we are doing what He tells us to do simply by following His Word and yielding our lives to His love, not by attaining any kind of value in this world, for this world has nothing essential to offer, as appealing as its proposals can be to our human nature. We discover our ultimate worth by looking to Him rather than anything or anyone else. Something like this is frankly quite tricky, and it does require absolute surrender. So, loving Him in return means surrendering ourselves to Him despite our inadequacy.
This is the difficult part. To become humble, we must be humbled. We are most like Jesus when we are aware of our worthlessness apart from Him, when we hold fast to the grace that He bestows upon us, when we believe in His promises for greater things, and when we realize how selfish we naturally are.
Humility is much more complex than doing something commendable for another person. When we look into our lives, we will find that we are all sinful and undeserving of God’s grace, and thus, commendation from a person will give us a kind of importance that fades away. We cannot earn our value, and the more we try to, the more we will be confused and let down by our motives, because the only little praise we’ll receive is from men, and even that is fleeting and rubbish. True humility means honoring the God of the universe by becoming outwardly invisible so that people only see our hearts — the place where the Holy Spirit is most present. It means loving selflessly and putting our needs behind us since the God of the universe cares for us (Philippians 2:3). It isn’t trouble-free. It is quite risky. We will get hurt sometimes, we will feel abandoned by the world, and we will certainly suffer because of it, but just like Jesus and the other servants that followed after Him, there is joy, comfort and peace like no other rewarded to us when we meet trials and tests to our faith. Therefore, every pain is for the purpose of growing and realizing His steadfast presence (Romans 5:3-5). We are already precious in His sight because we originally belonged to Him, and once we embrace that, there is no limit to the revelations we will discover and the love that we will spread. It’s infinite. This is what we were meant for (Psalm 139:13-16).
Humility is only looking to honor God, and that must require every part of us. What comes after humility is always beautiful and priceless (1 Peter 5:6), and just by relying on His purpose for us, blessings will overflow our lives like rushing waterfalls (Romans 8:28).
Confidence, security, and trust are all parts of what it means to be a leader, and I’ve been steadily learning such things through the experiences God has brought me through. God’s marvelous love is so deep, so beautiful, and so perfect. Not only is it enlightening, but it is enlivening. His love makes me want to do whatever I must to worship and glorify Him, placing His majesty above all. A leader is not rewarded by men or the feeling of power and might, but by God’s steadfast love, the little traces of heaven we feel on earth because we are so in love with Him that nothing else matters. It brings God such pleasure to see His sons and daughters kneeling before Him. When we give up everything else to be with Him, something wonderful happens: He takes delight in us, we become blameless in His sight, and He gives us a true merit that we could never earn apart from Him (James 4:10). Our reward is above, and we sincerely can taste it right now. It’s in the air we breathe, it’s written in the skies, and it guides our footsteps. His love is everywhere, reminding us that the heart of a servant was meant for eternity, and that victory belongs to those who become like Jesus — meek, lowly, and humble (Psalm 149:4). To really lead is to follow, and although it may take both time and effort, others will join in your following Him because they’ll notice that a life devoted to Him is worth so much more than every little morsel of ephemeral enjoyment the world offers. God is always right beside us. There is bliss in Him.
He loves you. You must understand that your true identity is in His love alone, and nothing else. He’ll mold your heart into that of a servant, if only you believe in Him and pursue Him. You’ll find yourself constantly enjoying, exploring, and realizing the simple joys and intricate wonders He places in your life, and you are genuinely meant for that (James 1:17). That’s when you become you — the you that He made you to be.